the ferocity is just beginning.

I AM SO EXCITED TO HAVE THAT AARON TVEIT TARP DONE!!! I CANNOT WAIT!!!

Such an irony how badly I want this week and next week to be over, but I don't want September to come. September should just get lost. I kind of want time to work backwards somehow. If that can't happen, I wish some things could just stay the way they are. I don't want people disappearing.

I made a pretty nice driving playlist so that I can sing to and from school. It's a good mix of theater songs and some orchestral music. I'm really picky with my music. As a child I liked pop, but now I just want to hear show tunes and orchestras making magic. Anyway, I forgot that I put this song called "Now" by Scott Alan, which totally sums up all the things I'm afraid I might say in the near future. Driving along Commonwealth has never been that emotional. Maybe it's just my hormones acting up, but seriously, that felt really really heavy.

I don't know where and how I'm gonna pick up after that. Attachment is a bitch.

In other news, things have just gone from stressful to stressfullest (using poetic license)!! The OAS is being a bitch and I don't even know where to start ranting about that whole ordeal. I've got midterms, reports, projects, and a shitload of readings to deal with. Oh and I have thesis too!! Joel said yesterday that he likes busy people because busy people are the only ones who get things done. I like that.

I had my grad pic taken yesterday, and with the work I'm doing now, graduation better happen! I wish I had Aaron Tveit to cheer me up. Or the man of my dreams, if you know what I mean.

Okay enough.

I'm promising myself that the next blog will be coherent. Wish me luck!