the boat (aka manila) is sinking. group yourselves accordingly

TODAY, I LEARNED:

1. that being a dedicated worker may come at a price if you're too dedicated
2. it's such a downer when it's supposedly your last time to do something and you have been waiting to just get it over and done with and POOF. the event gets postponed
3. that i'm always either just at home or in school when intense floods happen and people get hurt. it made me realize that i feel uncomfortable with the fact that i am comfortable. because i know that other people just aren't.
4. (in relation to the previous number) WHICH MEANS, i get to miss out on all the action just when things are getting exciting. MY LIFE IS BORING. I NEED ADVENTURES.
5. that there's nothing like feeling secure when you know that the people you love are secure.
6. that i do love my friends after all and i do look out for them, especially in times like this.

i awoke today with a lot in mind: the FA101 project with a september 26 deadline, having to sleep at 4:30am just to get that project done, being FOH head for the LAST TIME (which is a truly comforting thought), and first on my schedule for the day - ushering for spring awakening.

the rain was kinda hard though i didn't know how hard it was until i got all dressed up and ready to go. got a call from my mom that they're all stuck in ateneo because my brother who's in 7th grade has salu-salo. i wanted to leave the house at 11 so i can make it to the 12nn call time. it was almost 11 so i was semi-panicking. i kept thinking, I CANNOT BE LATE! I CANNOT BE A FLAKER. I AM NOT A FLAKER.

so my mom told me to tell the maid to hail a cab outside the village because i said that i had to go to rcbc no matter what happens. hell, i didn't know it would be impossible. at that time, i called bea to ask if the show's still on, and she said yes so i panicked more. i had to get there asap, no matter what. i can't fail.

got messages from bluerep that rock and rule's gonna be postponed. more work for me. wow :| then atlantis cancelled the show half an hour later. no one could get to rcbc perhaps. although i did have the option of going to school with my brother then maybe taking the train or making sabay with the people in school. had i done that, god knows where i'd be now.

thank god i'm not as professional as i think i am (at least during calamities).

i stayed home with my sister and watched episodes 3 and 4 of glee. just when episode 4 started playing, the power went out. that bitch. so it was me and my sister, in our room, at 1pm, doing nothing. the rain got ultra strong and since i live on a hill, i didn't have to worry about safety. i saw people climbing uphill, some with only one plastic bag (which isn't very environment friendly) containing belongings as some houses have already been submerged. imagine, one whole house, and all you're getting is one little plastic bag containing things that matter most to you. it felt so depressing. there i was, watching them through the window of a house that sits on a hill and has thick walls and stuff.

i felt trapped in time and space, so i just ate cereal, hallucinated that there was wii fit, had conversations with my sister and studied philosophy. i felt like studying. I DON'T KNOW WHY.

our maid who went on a day off suddenly arrived with her family members, as their house had already sunk. she said that the passed through the roofs of the houses just to get out alive. my former teacher had a house built around a year ago and the flood in their area reached the second floor. i got a message from her that she's safe (even if it meant using her baby's kiddie pool as a boat and getting out of the house through the balcony. the balcony!), but lost contact with her later on. i hope she's fine. another friend got stuck in edsa then landed in a mall so maybe that was the most comfortable place to be, next to home. some of my friends still haven't answered so i'll keep praying that they're fine.

i hope everyone's okay after the perfect storm. i'm not waiting for it to happen again, but i also hope that i could be part of the whole fiasco next time. it was boring to wait at home. and yeah, i want to help those who need help.